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Friday, December 9, 2011

Vanishing Twin Syndrome

Yesterday I was bleeding pretty bad and cramping. For the past three days Ive been in a lot of pain, shaking, weak and just not right. I went to the E.R. last night, not our normal but the closest and to make a long story short found out we were carrying twins. The reason my HCG had tripled instead of doubled in the beginning of the pregnancy was because there were two babies.

The second baby, like my previous miscarriages, was not developing on schedule at all. So when we did the ultrasounds he never showed up. The reason I was cramping and bleeding was because I had a hidden twin inside.The syndrome was killed “Vanishing Twin Syndrome.” I had never heard of this before.

The other baby is doing good. I am eight weeks today but he measured 8 weeks 2 days last night, had a heartbeat of 167 and an hcg of 92,000.

It was very bittersweet. I didn’t know I was carrying twins and finding out the same day I lost one was hard. But we have had no live births and we really want a child, so knowing the other baby is currently happy and developing well is very good news. Bittersweet. Still praying very hard for this baby! Id love to have a healthy baby to finally hold in my arms.

13 comments:

Dee said...

Oh Jess, I totally know how you feel. My last daughter was one of twins. We also did not know and only found out at the routine 12am scan that one had been lost at 8wks! I was utterly devastated. Try and keep positive. I will so totally be thinking/hoping and praying that this works out for you. (((hugs)))

Dee x

Christina said...

So glad to hear that one child is viable and growing, but so sorry to hear about the lost twin.

Kristin said...

This too happened to me. My baby girl is now a bouncy, sassy, happy four year old. She always talks about her sister though, she of course, does not know she was a twin. All my best to the blessed baby boy inside of you and prayers for many more to come!

Spanked Army Wife said...

I keep calling bean a boy but the baby may be a girl.

Rogue said...

Oh, it is bittersweet! I'm sorry for the loss of the little one and will be praying that you deliver a healthy child. :)

Ashley Marie said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I've never heard of such a thing before but I'm sure it is indeed very bittersweet. Prayers to you and your husband that bean comes out happy and healthy.

Grace said...

Bittersweet for sure. I'm so sorry about the twin, but I'm so happy that the other baby is developing on schedule. (((hugs))) My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you and little bean.

Susie said...

So sorry to hear about the lost little one, but we will keep praying for your other little bean.

Kristin said...

Well then, typically, girls tend to be twins more often, generally, but you never know. I just wanted to add after seeing my comment that I also can relate to your devastation. I have three precious children now but I have also suffered four early miscarriages, one ectopic that took my Fallopian tube and the loss of my daughters twin. It has never gotten easier and my heart still longs for those lost babies. I am comforted though by the knowledge that each life, even seemingly so very short, had a purpose her on earth and within our hearts. I know I will meet those souls in heaven one day and God cradles them in his everlasting arms. After I read my comment I realized it could come off as flippant, I did not mean that at all. Take care and rest! This will be the last season of life in which you will be able too! ; )

OneLove said...

This happened to my mom, too. I survived, my twin did not. My prayers are still with you and your baby!

Florida Dom said...

Sorry for you loss but good luck on having a healthy, happy baby. Our prayers are with you.

FD

kiwigirliegirl said...

so sorry for the loss of your little one but so many good thoughts and prayers for the bean :)

Kristin said...

Hello Jessica, me again. Call me pushy but I feel invested now after sharing my exeriences. I know I truly don't "know" you in the truest sense of the word but I have been worried about how you are doing. You have not blogged in a few days and although it is very near to Christmas and we are all busy, Ileep checking back to see if things are OK. I don't think there is any more heart wrenching journey for a women than the pursuit of conceiving and bearing a child of your own. I think that is the only pursuit that could ever trump a womans greatest desire for true communion with her husband. The deepest feeling that if only the empty arms we desperately long to fill with the hurtles of our own sweet newborn were met, than everything else would be OK. It is the greif only we have endured it can understand and the only greif we have to bear while others are aloud to respond with trite comments such as "just relax, it will happen". It's like walking up to scalene at a funeral and saying, "Just relax, his dying was invetible anyway, you'll get over it in time". I would like to see how that would fly... Anyway, I digress, I would love to know how you are, good or bad, as I am sure everyone else following this would love to know too, we are here for you!! Sincerely, Kristin - residing here in the decidedly un- Christmaslike New York climate! Geesh! Where is the snow??? I want a white Christmas! ; )

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